I guess it's time to share...

I know that July is almost over and I have not added one new blog entry.  Too busy out and about but at least I've been able to keep up sharing our live via our Facebook page.  Sometimes there just isn't enough time.  Or maybe I'm just being a little more stingy with my time these days.  You see, July has been a sort of transitional time for our family.  I know that I have mentioned before that my husband was diagnosed with Stargardt's disease about a year ago after suffering symptoms for the past four to five years, but I have been a little quiet about the fact that his condition had worsened to the point that he actually is no longer able to work at his job.  It has been a big change for him to be home and he's trying to keep busy but I'm sure a part of him misses that "place of his own." 

I was worried that when he came home for good it would be hard, or that I would feel put out of my place but instead, it's been wonderful having him here.  I've spent the last 15 years or so as a third shift widow, spending so much time alone while he slept, or was at work that there is a teensy tiny bit of me that is loving having my husband near me all the time.  I'm a little romantic like that, my glasses are very rose colored at times.  But, in all seriousness, I am relieved that he's no longer forced to pretend things are okay at work, he no longer has to drive to and from work worried about the drive and I no longer have to worry about him either.  That's a lot of stress off of us.

Not that it's all going to be stress free.  I mean, there is a very real possibility that we will not be able to keep our house.  It was hard to come to grips with the fact that our house isn't worth enough to sell, and our new adjusted income isn't enough to pay everything,  but it's okay. It really, honestly and truly is okay.  I'm happy that he's healthy and here and that is enough for me.  God will provide a door for us, and I trust that completely.  We're doing all we can to work through solutions, but if, at the end of all of that, we can't manage it, then we move on.  It's not worth stressing over something that is a material possession. 

In the meantime, he's learning how to make bread, peanut butter and all of the other stuff I make each week, and he's a great help with the daycare kids.  He's been able to take the dogs for walks in the morning and I think he's settling into this new role.  And see

July in Review

No, July is not over but the vacation that has been all but a few days of July is just about over so I thought I'd share some of our fun explorations and food...